Meaning Experiment – Discover Your Matrix Follow Up
Sitting down to address each of Baker’s action steps this week was a great activity to help me gain clarity and also to be a little bit more honest with myself.
Often when I see these sorts of personal development activities I don’t stop to actually do them. I think about them, but there is a huge difference between writing down your thoughts and just thinking through some answers. Somehow, when you let your thoughts take form through your pen or your keyboard, they form with more clarity and honesty and they provide you with a more powerful experience.
I decided to do this task while at work, during my lunch break. By scheduling activities that are personally meaningful into my work day (of course making sure the work I have to do is done) I find myself looking forward to the day ahead and also a greater sense of accomplishment at the end of the day. Now that I’m back at the place I was working at a few years ago I find nothing much has changed during the lunch break and my colleagues are still talking about sport, or computers or work during lunch, without stepping away from their desks. So I’m creating my own personal space during this break to do something meaningful.
So if you haven’t yet tried each of Baker’s action steps there’s really no excuse. Next workday during your lunch break, sit and spend 15 minutes answering the questions as I did and see what you come up with.
Here are my responses:
What’s my mission?
My mission is to use all of my potential to be the best version of myself that I can be. I am here to learn about how this universe really works and break beyond the barriers of my own perceptions. I am here to realise and act upon the power of my mind. My mission is to bring awareness of how people may be limiting their own experiences of their existence. I am here to open people’s eyes to alternate ways of living and being. I am here to get excited about this existence and to help others do the same.
What do you really want out of life?
I want to read, write, think and learn, and I want to be able to earn a comfortable living from doing so. I want to really connect with people on a deeper level and find rewarding and enriching experiences from these encounters. I want to teach people, not just mathematics, but also how to live in energising and rewarding ways. I want people to feel that our time together was meaningful and perhaps even life changing. I want the freedom to choose what to do with every second of my existence. I want to know the world experientially.
What’s the Matrix in my life?
Designing a life that is deeply meaningful and fulfilling for me. (I know what I want, but am finding the “how” of it all quite challenging at present. I do often feel that figuring it all out is like trying to solve a massive system of equations, which is of course a matrix!)
The constant struggle between feeling life is meaningful and feeling life is futile. (It is a choice to believe that life is meaningful, especially when you don’t hold any religious beliefs. As such I find myself swinging between realising that life can be meaningful and feeling that life is futile and boring. Although the swings don’t seem quite as extreme as they used to, it is still a struggle some days.)
Figuring out a way to fuse my talents and potential with my interests in a way that supports me financially. (I think this one is self explanatory and I think it’s a question that many people ponder. How exactly can we live meaningful lives while still being rewarded financially? I think once I have this one figured out I’ll be well on my way from exiting the matrix.)
If you haven’t identified your matrix yet, take the time to write down the 2 or 3 that exist in your life. How will you be able to unplug from those areas of your life that are holding you back if you haven’t yet identified them? Give it a go.